Eternal Sunshine of a Spotless Mind
A poem
1 min readMar 4, 2021
I wish I could forget the past — the bad memories.
I wish I could take each strand of it and leave it all behind,
that somehow I could shake my head and it would just disappear.
It doesn’t though.
It lingers when I’m alone,
it comes when I don’t want it to.
I don’t remember the happy memories often.
I’ve seen my smile, the way my eyes crinkle,
the way happiness is supposed to look like.
But the smile is only stagnant,
the image bears no sound.
I submerge myself in water,
I race myself to hear my heart pound,
but my thoughts — they still chase me.
His face and my regret,
his tears and my fault.
I remember the bad and ugly,
but I hear the good,
I know the good.
I just cannot remember the good.
